Letter from Carlo

Hi George,

Thanks for your reply. I am glad that you
are well and happy.

Maybe I am envious of people who are so open about
their emotions as I have often suppressed mine in the
past, not sure why … maybe because I find it
more convenient/easier than facing reality, but also
because I don’t know where I want to settle
down, and prefer to push people away if they get too
close.


Anyway been just feeling a bit guilty in the last few
days, as in my life I have only had a few men who I
have allowed to get close to me, but they have all
been great and giving people, including Adrian and
yourself, but I have never given in return what they
have given to me, and I have often ended up hurting
them, even though this is the last thing I want to do
…

I am just not good at expressing myself, or I
just hope that despite my inertia ‘time’
will fix things for me … not a good way to go
about life.


Anyway I really appreciate what you have given me, and
the warmth I have felt and I am sure we will still
catch up again next time we are in the same city.


Take good care of yourself, hope having your own place
now will make you happier and keep in touch.


Hugs


Carlo